YAY!
i'm finally updating my blog.
x_x
so many freaking things happened.
ARGH.

i just spent 2 hours trying to do the video x_x
i figured why the song couldn't play.
it's because the file is not correct x_x
grr.

let's start narrating.

tuesday
hmm,
erm..
i can't rmb.
omg.
OH!
i was at home for the whole freaking day.
with a sore throat.
yep.
oh,
according to batchmates,
they had a horrible time in band with mr oura.
he threw the tuner across the room.
...
i'm so glad i was sick.

wednesday
hmm.
went back to sch?
doesn't seem like alot of people cared? o.o
hmm.
doing props for the whole day.
half the day in the basketball courts,
the other half in class.
was walking around aimlessly,
trying to look for freaking cardboard.
i'm now emotionally unbalanced.
x_x
had band.
sc prac, RB!, then direct taking.
overture for winds is at least 70% easier than turandot.
no really high notes, no semi-demi quavers, no really fast rhythms.
& so i love it like hell.
i'm still really frustrated that i can't play that part fast enough.
...
i also can't believe my dynamics suck.
my accent suck the most.
D:
i really must go improve my stamina.
if not i would always be repeating that same few bars again & again.
D:
...

thursday
hmm.
the only thing i have to say is.
there was band.
it was okay.
at least mr oura wasn't in a bad mood.
okay..

today
hmm.
morning went to warm up for tech rehearsal.
then ran back to class with instru for morning assembly.
war was still on D:
ran back to corridor again after that.
hmm. because it was raining,
so everything was pushed back to 9 a.m.
hence,
we had to sit in the hall for the sharks conservation talk.
IT WAS SUPER FREAKY & CRUEL.
people simply chop off the shark's fins and throw it back to the sea,
without the fins, the shark can't swim D:
& they were thrown back into salt water,
not fresh water.
D:
rubbing salt into the wound...
it's so cruel.
we should all stop eating shark's fin soup.
shark's fin contains high level of mercury levels that are harmful to humans.
so, STOP EATING THEM.
SHARKS ARE GOING TO BE EXTINCT.
THEY ARE THE TOP PREDATORS, MAN.
AHH.
super unstable now.
sharks are not harmful D:
continueing..
we went back for band,
had sc prac [short one.] in band room.
then went up the gallery to set up stands.
then the part we had to set up in was so..
small. narrow. tiny. squeezy. D:
then gloria thought for a long time before deciding the best method
to place the stand so that we can both see.
then the teachers told us this.
they say that if it is the wet weather arrangement,
we would not be playing anything at all,
okay, you all can go back and set down now.
[something like that.]
then we were all like,
...
we spent alot of time trying to settle down okay D:
...
...
nevermind.
back in class,
near to end of sch,
everybody started going as crazy as me
& started singing very random songs.
like, thunder by boys like girls.
& honey honey from mama mia?
it was really crazy x_x

end of my week



i realise that,
one can never understand another completely.
unless you really went into her body and live her life before.

i think i'm too self-centred.
i always want to know things that i don't have to know,
& i would really annoy the person,
only realising it afterwards.

i don't understand why i'm so ...
i'm feeling really distraught.
D:
maybe God make it in a way that,
some things just can't be resolved.

i really think i should stop being so nosey and asking so many things.
i always thought that i should help by understanding people.
but i realise that,
many times, people don't want you to interrupt their lives
& try to be some God or angel to understand them.
i don't know - that's what i think.
maybe it's only to me.

i always feel this sense of accomplishment when i managed to cheer someone up.
i mean, i treat cheering people up as a must-do thing.
even if i'm sad, cheering people up will still be the number one thing to do.
maybe that's why i'm always feeling so upset,
like no one really understands me.
actually i think i don't understand myself as well.

i think too much sometimes.
i'm too sensitive, i guess.
i'm hoping my optimism can take over me like,
now.

i guess,
maybe helping people is just not my thing.
i should stop all my concept of 'helping people' , 'saving the earth'.

seriously, i think i have an attitude problem.

i simply.
don't rock.
D: