idk actaully.
should i feel sad?
should i feel jealous?
should i just forget about the past?

5A, 6A?
everyone?
HCL classmates?
schoolmates?
cca mates?

maybe i should learn to move on.
it seems like only those people who know how to move on gets further in life.
but, what?
doesn't that mean that i have not past?
i have no primary school life at all?
my life began in secondary school?

is that it?
is this all meant to be?

maybe that's the problem with me.
when everyone else have moved on and forgotten me,
i still hold on to the past,
left behind,
alone,
to face everything,
with new people.
no one that knows me well enough.
(referring to friends)

maybe i should just be anti-social.
so i will never lose anything.
because i never gained anything in the first place.

maybe i should just give up trying so hard to get into everyone's good books.
i should just stop trying so hard to be nice.
i should just stop writing my negative thoughts on this blog,
because i know that people would start tagging me again.
whether they are really sincere or not.
their conscience tell them to do so.
or perhaps they want to mock me.

i guess most people are wondering,
why am i so pathetic?
why do i think too much?
why don't i just accept the fact?

idk.
this is just me.
like it, or not,
it's up to you.





LOL.
just joking.
i'm not so emo.
that's just all of my negative thoughts.
zzz!
just to update for today :D

there's band tmr!
and footdrills as well.

i seriously don't want to disappoint my seniors again.
so i should focus!

:D