O.O!
hahas.

something tells me vivian is going to die next tuesday.

o.o
she missed alot today.
not only footdrills, main band prac as well.
AHHAS.
can't wait to see her face next week.
she'll be like @_@ ?!? x_X
lol.

my back is sore!
from playing and footdrills.
AHHHH.
x_x
i don't get wth is the problem with me.
i just can't seem to point my toes every time.
i must be retarded o.o

for main band prac,
i felt quite depressed.
actually,
i think this depression was from footdrills as well o.o

i felt (and played) damned horrible for main band prac.
it's just those simple notes,
and i can't get it.
i can't move fast enough.
it's not that the tempo is too fast or anything or that i can't tongue fast enough.
i can, if i want to.
my fingers just can't move fast enough D:

you know,
i'm actually quite jealous of the seniors,
and i really really look up to the brasses' seniors!
woodwind instrus should be easier to tongue.
but the way the brasses' seniors tongue,
simply makes me feel very very inferior.

o.o
adding to my depression,
i totally stoned for the I part.
...
and during main band prac,
i couldn't even get the top parts right.

but,
i feel a teeny bit happy to realise that,
i can actually play the top part o.o
once i sorted out my fingerings and noted the patterns.

i still sucked at I though.
i seem to be so problematic.
all those alternative fingerings didn't help me D:
it made me messier in fact o.o
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i was just simply used to playing my way.
i tried gloria's fingerings before,
but i just couldn't be as fast as my current fingerings,
so i switched back.
haiz.
o.o

i really wished i could teleport my instru home!
i want to indiv very badly.
i want to do well.
i don't want to feel bad every time i go for band prac.
i need to get my commands right,
and not mix anything up.
i still can't get the dismissal one.
o.o
the rest is quite okay.
i actually like marching.
lol.
o.o
very very sweaty and tiring today.
but it was worth it.
one step nearer to SYF :D

this is my first SYF since i joned band in p5,
so i don't want to screw up.
yes,
so jys :D