silver.
sigh.
i can't believe SYF's over, still.
it just went in a flash.
when they announced our school's results...
i really don't know what i was feeling.
at first, i thought the announcer said gold.
then i heard samseah saying: "was that a silver? please tell me no."
then it struck me.
it wiped out all my emotions.
i just felt this jolt then nothingness.
it's like.
i just feel empty.
blank.
not sad,
not disappointed.
not anything.
just shocked.
i guess.

i was really not expecting that.
this is actually the first time
i see others cry
and being able to not cry.
i guess that's because i was really emotionless.
silver.
however much i wanted that GwH,
i'm quite contented with this silver i guess.
at least i really enjoyed myself.
i really gave it my all.
i think.
it was really heartening to see MO smile (:
aiya, idk what to say.
if i keep thinking into it.
i'll start crying.



go RGSSB.
i really do love you.

we shook SCH !

:D